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| Wednesday, February 7th, 2007 | | 4:30 pm |
love songs? yes please!
hey, can you guys send me titles for your favourite love songs? that would be awesome, since i've already made cds in the past with all the lovey songs i own... and a lot of jordans, too. new stuff! send it to meeeeee!!! | | Monday, January 29th, 2007 | | 5:32 pm |
giggles into the past
i was just re-reading something that ali (aka garlic) sent (scent?... god i'm funny sometimes.) me last year... it warms me inside, and makes me laugh outloud... something i haven't done while reading in a long while. laughter? yes. just the whole thing. Current Mood:  happy | | Friday, December 22nd, 2006 | | 4:20 pm |
N.B:
margerita's. i'll miss margerita's. Current Mood:  disappointed | | 12:17 pm |
stuff, just stuff.
things i will miss: mulled wine lemonade oranges in summer lemon loaf water melon fights extreme clean toothpaste herbal teas with orange peels or hibiscus things i'm looking forward to: writing in my new journal new pens seeing jordan drinking rapberry chocolate coffee christmas morning solstice party with my mom starting a new semester looking for a place to live applying for jobs and i found my student cards from highschool... i haven't changed at all, except for my hair, since grade 9... *sigh* hehehe.. hair. Current Mood:  awake | | Sunday, December 10th, 2006 | | 5:23 pm |
can't even leave the house cause i have to study.
i'm really not feeling the love for anyone right now. i mean, i think i have a hate on for pretty much every situation involving people right now. it's a healthy mix of bitter, sarcastic, used, forgotten, last minute "oh yeah! jean exists.." reluctance, and it makes me want to never talk to people again. i don't even know why i'm feeling this way... well i do, but they aren't very good reasons. maybe i just need to go home and be reminded or some important facts. like why i left. or maybe i need to go drown myself. :P i was kidding. i just want this semester over with. Current Mood:  cynical | | Saturday, December 9th, 2006 | | 8:17 pm |
| | Wednesday, December 6th, 2006 | | 1:52 pm |
not studying? who, me?
AAAaaaahhhh, yes. exams. they are upon us. (somes of us, anyways.) and as per my usual style, i'm avoiding the 7 power point presentations i have to go over for my exam tonight. but can i tell you, we have snow!! it's beautiful! all white and cold and fluffy! *dances off into the snow* ooh! maybe later i can add pictures! and can i tell everyone how HAPPY this makes me?!?! *squeee!!!* and now i need more coffee. Current Mood: happy | | Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006 | | 11:46 pm |
because i want to be carley-anne when i grow up
THIRTEEN RANDOM THINGS YOU LIKE: .: thunder storms .: canoe tripping .: good wine .: good friends .: learning .: kissing .: lichens/fungus .: books .: being outside .: cooking .: eating .: silence .: music TWELVE MOVIES: .: love, actually .: Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy .: corpse bride .: nightmare before christmas .: beetlejuice .: big fish .: james and the giant peach .: fight the future .: dogma .: clerks .: dogma .: an inconvenient truth ELEVEN GOOD BANDS/ARTISTS: .: ani difranco .: beeler .: tegan and sara .: jordan .: dar williams .: stars .: the beatles .: sarah harmer .: hidden cameras .: tori amos .: barenaked ladies TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU: .: i have two cats and a turtle .: i don't really know why i'm in rec right now .: i love the book alice in wonderland .: i swim .: i have a plan with katelyn to have bush babies at the same time .: i'm in love .: i'm better at listening than most people think .: i too, wish that keeping in touch with people wasn’t hard .: i have amazing friends .: sometimes i forget i'm amazing NINE GOOD FRIENDS : .: jordan .: colleen .: helen .: carley .: katelyn .: ali .: simpson .: eric .: megan/andrew EIGHT FAVORITE FOODS/DRINKS : .: broccoli .: milk .: gouda cheese .: goat cheese .: good bread .: chocolate .: zuchinni .: cheese cake SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY: .: bra .: underwear .: trip bracelets .: pants .: shirt .: eyebrow/nose rings .: touque SIX THINGS THAT YOU HATE: .: head games .: hypocricy .: immaturity .: being forgotten .: being ignored .: being fat FIVE THINGS YOU DO DAILY: .: read .: laugh .: love .: listen .: wish FOUR SHOWS YOU WATCH: (when i have access to a tv...) .: CSI las vegas .: family guy .: house .: kids in the hall THREE PEOPLE YOU'VE KISSED: .: my boyfriend .: my girlfriend (not current) .: attractive people TWO THINGS YOU WANT: .: to be happy .: to be ready ONE PERSON YOU WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW: .: carley anne and everyone from home that i haven't seen in far too long. Current Mood:  sleepy | | Tuesday, August 29th, 2006 | | 3:14 pm |
up until about 20 minutes ago, i was really excited to go to school. and now i'm not. and the car is packed, and my overnight bag is ready to go and i have my clothes and new rainjacket... and now i don't want to leave. and all that's left is to clean seans tank, shower, and do a load of laundry. why don't i want to go? Current Mood: sad and aprehensive. | | Sunday, August 27th, 2006 | | 10:34 pm |
| | Thursday, August 24th, 2006 | | 11:34 pm |
all about homestar runner.
i thought maybe i'd share this with you guys. i'm not sure any of you care, but it's fun none-the-less. so here's the ten year toon. and some quotes to start ya off.. "Everybody loves the me. I'm a terrific athlete." "I feel great! i feel fresh as a bagle!" "Unhhh...these grapes are succulently crushing my windpipe.. ooh! but they're seedless!" annnnd... the decemberween moments in history... teen girl squad!!the martinis have gone straight to their heads. oh strong sad... did anyone else know that he has a poster for boys don't cry in his room? i don't remember which sbemail it's in. but this is fun and entertaining. experimental filmand last but not least, the teen girl squad. all of them. so, if that doesn't bring you any amusement or enjoyment at all... then i'm sorry to hear that. Current Mood: nostalgic | | 1:49 pm |
i feel no remorse, i stole this blatantly from kimmy. i even told her i would. If you get more than 30 you're paranoid. If you get 10 or less you're fearless. I Fear... [ ] the dark (being alone in it) [ ] staying single forever [ ] being a parent [ ] giving birth [ ] being myself in front of others [ ] open spaces/closed spaces [x ] heights (only when i'm climbing, but it think that's more not trusting myself.) [ ] black cats [ ] dogs [ ] birds [ ] fish [ ] spiders, ticks and/or other insects (INSECTS....UGH!) [ ] driving...] driving or being in cars [ ] flying [ ] flowers or other plants [ ] being touched [ ] fire [ ] deep water [ ] the ocean [ ]failure [ ] success [ ] thunder/lightning [ ] frogs/toads [ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad [ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom [ ] mice/rats [ ] jumping from high places [ ] snow [ ] rain [ ] wind (not a breeze) [ ] crossing bridges [ ] death [ ] Heaven [ ] being robbed [ ] cotton balls [ ] cemeteries [ ] clowns [x] large crowd [ ] "OLD" men [ ] women [ ] having great responsibility [ ] doctors, including dentists [ ] tornadoes [ ] hurricanes [ ] diseases [ ] snakes [ ] sharks [ ] Friday the 13th [ ] poverty [ ] ghosts [ ] Halloween [ ] school [ ] trains or railroads [ ] odd numbers [ ] even numbers [x] being alone (but only when i'm surrounded by people.. like being alienated) [ ] being blind [ ] being deaf [ ] growing up [ ] monsters under my bed [ ] creepy noises in the night [ ] bee stings [ ]not accomplishing my dreams/goals [ ] needles [ ] blood (depends from where) [ ] dinosaurs [ ] the welcome mat [ ] butterflies 3. um. i don't think they asked the right questions, cause i fear more than three things... i must. let's see. losing my right to choose. and think freely. and um.. oh, that g.w. will take out the whole continent (or world) with his insane paranoid self-induced war mongering attitude towards the rest of the world. so really, i got 6. dang. (i totaly added butterflies cause i know some one with a phobia of them. don't ask me how that works, cause i got no idea.) Current Mood: bored | | Friday, August 18th, 2006 | | 5:38 pm |
for school this year, actually!
can everyone please write out the version of One Duck that they learned? that would be fabulous! here, i'll start ya'll off! One Duck! Current Mood: happy | | Friday, August 11th, 2006 | | 9:28 pm |
*insert sounds of pure frustration*
you know, i really thought i was past the point where people could disappoint me in such a huge, life changing way. that i could just accept people for who they were and move on when their behaviour became too negative of an impact on my life.. and yet here i am.. spending all this time being angry, and frustrated and dissappointed and so many other things... i guess this would be the mourning process for a friendship. i know i can't be the only one who's had to deal with this before, and i know that it's that much harder watching a close friend go through shit because another person is so fucking.. shit. i am so angry about this. i mean, what do you do when your friend cries night after night because their "friend" stands them up, or ignores them in groups, or... calls and then acts all self righteous and downright bitchy. jesus fuck. no wonder i don't give second chances. people rarely deserve them. Current Mood: frustrated and appalled. | | Wednesday, August 9th, 2006 | | 10:18 am |
i miss my pink mowhawk.
*larme* Current Mood: nostalgic | | Monday, August 7th, 2006 | | 9:50 am |
who knew? probably everyone but me.
When i came home from school this year, i found myself thinking an awful lot.
i'd just spent an amazing 8 months making friends, meeting amazing people, falling in love, getting screwed (both literally and figuratively), having fun, crying, getting really sick, getting taken care of, finding out that i'm not the stupid kid, and generally loving every moment. but one thing i didn't do this year was dress up. looking back now, i realize that owning no dress, only two casual skirts and a couple nice-ish shirts that really don't go with said nice-ish skirts makes it really hard to dress up.
in highschool i was trying to scrape by, and just continue to fly under the radar. i had a few close friends and for the most part was bored with the greater highschool community. i didn't bother with clothing and make-up for a whole bunch of reasons (most of them are really excuses), and just tried to work hard to get the hell out. last fall, for the first time since grade 6, i bought pants that fit tightly, and showed off my legs. i bought tighter shirts and stopped hiding in my clothes. i had a great time and i actually felt really good about myself. but i still didn't have a dress.
and so! this summer i took it upon myself to find a dress that would look good on me and i would feel amazing in. i looked in stores all over, and came to the same conclusion that i always come to after bra shopping... they just don't make nice clothing for women above a large C. unless it's like, a tripple X-L. and then it doesn't fit anyways. if i get a dress that fits my hips and waist, it's three sizes too small for my breasts. or if it fits my breasts, it's like a potato sack on the rest of my body. and i really don't have the money to get everything custom made.
so i realized this summer that i really do like to look nice and pretty and that i am pretty and that i was really dumb to listen to anyone who put me down for wanting to wear make-up or dresses. stupid lables.
anywho, the fruits of my labours.
 
that's all i have for pictures so far, but i'm sure i will have more once i get up to school and jordan starts playing with his camera.
i like being pretty. Current Mood:  content | | Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006 | | 8:41 am |
bah. i'm done.
i realized today (as i woke up at 5:30 to dogs barking and licking my face and feet) that i am really not that fond of dogs.
as i got out of bed and got dressed i realized i was dripping sweat down my back. these dogs live in a house with no air conditioning and one fan, and the usual summer tempurature is about 46 with humidity. i feel sorry for them for that. so, stumbling down the stairs to the breakfast nook, i feed them and open the door to the back yard. i realize that yesterday i forgot to give them the flea pill and go back into the kitchen to find scissors (thankfully in my shoes still) and i hear this sick little popping sound.
i look down, and there are MAGGOTS crawling all over the floor.
by the time i finish cleaning them all up (from the garbage i had in the garbage bag in the holder thingy under the sink. apparently two days is enough for fly eggs to hatch into maggots.) it was 6:30 and way too hot to walk the dogs. AND i don't know if the wee one actually poo'd before i left, so i may get to clean up dog poo from the carpet AGAIN.
i mean, these poor dogs... they must hate me. i feed them, walk them when i can (depending on weather) try to play with them... i just don't think they like me very much. or they're really stupid. i can't tell.
but i wanted to cry. the day has sucked since 5:30 am.
 Current Mood: discouraged | | Thursday, June 29th, 2006 | | 2:20 pm |
| | Saturday, June 17th, 2006 | | 6:27 pm |
who is that masked man?
that's exactly what every one will say when i arrive at school in two months!
so, it's been a while. i've done some stuff in the intervening months, but nothing earth shattering.
- odd jobs cat and dog sitting for a month or so at a time.
- i applied for a job at a coffee shop today, but i have to wait for the manager to call me back.
- jordan came to visit for two and a half weeks. we had a wicked fun time.
- i can't wait to get back to school
- i'm bored most days cause all my friends live so far away.
- and CSI isn't on during weekends. *larme*
and so? i leave you all, to go eat dinner with my mom.
welcome back to simpson and ali, i missed you both lots! i can't wait to see all your pictures in order, with the stories that go with them.
kimmy! you crazy kid! i can't wait to see you either. you always make me laugh. always.
and emma? i'm talking to you right now. and you really do learn something every day! for you today, it was the difference between adult and childrens teddies.
i don't think anyone else from school reads this. if you do, let me know.
Current Mood:  hungry | | Wednesday, April 19th, 2006 | | 5:54 pm |
here endeth the lesson.
and i'm free! i wrote my final exam today and i'd like to say, i am now the proud owner of one, Environmental Issues exam. complete with bitch AND housewife settings.
i guess that means i'm done my first year of university. why couldn't highschool have been this easy? i didn't struggle in school for the first time in my life.
*glares meaningfully and threateningly at both elementry and highschool systems*
all i have left to do now is move three medium sized boxes to storage, pack up my compy, drink two litres of milk, and go home.
oh.
and say goodbye to everyone. and then re-pack as soon as i get home so i can come back here in four months.
oooh, and here's a picture jordan took. just for fun.
maybe i'll put more pictures in later tonight.
and a thank you.
Current Mood:  accomplished |
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